I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be this for the incorrect reason; as a means to avoid my problems. acim teacher The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have allow you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not consider something that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.